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yaaay I finished my exams Finally ^_____________^ 
I actually finished yesterday but I stay cuz I have Japanese class today 
I wanted to draw something too badly It been like months now
but..... but ..... I couldn't find my pen table O____________O 
I look for it every where I feel so bad tomorrow I'm going home
I have to buy me new one as soon as possible 



yesterday I slept more than 15 hours there is no nightmare left
I didn't see but I kept sleeping 
then I watched a  japanese movie *Kill* 
there was four different stories I like them all
 except the second story it was terrible & boring >.< 

he keep saying that we are the same age I hate that seriously 
stop it ... I know I'm getting older but don't compare me with anyone
and sure as always I take it in friendly manner and Smile *no comment*

Eva :- IN MY FAMILLY NO ONE SAME MY AGE  NO ONE  NO ONE 
any way I have exam tomorrow 
I have alot to read A LOTS and I keep drinking tea these days >.<



* no good * 
Eva :- KEN-CHAN miss u >.<

Yay once again Koo-chan find me
I'm not doing well in my study being too damn slow as usual
but I'm so happy I talk to Koochan today 
and I found something  ....all this years . I thought that 



but but Koo-chan Koo-chan is Girl >.< Oh man I miss alots 
and she show me her recent cute lovely art work
she really make me wanna draw something right now .. being free
she remind me of my high school days 
I was drawing during classes and break make stories about ken 
play games with my sis wah it was really nice .. it just make me likes her more 

Eva :- Koo-chan study hard and got A++++ Full marks

I don't know what to write about there is too many things in my head
& I keep wonder about small stupid things . I change the way I look to things
change the way I think but ....the way I feel never change .



it start to snow again it's so cold today too cold that I don't want to 
go back to my empty apartment 
so I change my direction to yours it will take me longer time since I'm walking 
I just hoped that the weather won't get worse but it did .. frozen 
it's too cold & I'm wet from head to toe GOD 
I see ur building over there I focus on ur window & Pray that u'll be there...frozen
u weren't there 

so I just go back to my place 
take a warm path which was great 
made me a cup of hot chocolate start to look through my mails 
then going to bed ... OK I can't resist any more I had to call
u answer quickly like u were waiting for someone to call u 
I just say helloo 
then u start to speak non stop it never bother me  before but this time it did
cuz u kept speaking about someone else about how great time u having 
and like I guess u were waiting for that person to call 
never me 
I just put the phone away without saying anything still hearing u speaking
then I hag it knowing u won't call back ...
I just wana sleep now 

it's been so long since I had cold 
making my Head hurt more than usual
yesterday I couldn't sleep ..



anyway today was the last day of oral diagnosis lectures
and once again it's something I'll always remember 
I love My group even there is few girls scare me 
I still love my group 

my exams started  with the surgery yesterday I was like ...



and there is still more to come in the next few weeks 
but I don't really care not like before
I'm going home 

did you ever promise someone something and
 u know u won't be ever able to make it 
did you ever sleep and wish that tomorrow won't ever come 
did you ever say to someone "see you later" and deep down
 u don't want ever to see that person ever again 
why I use ever a lots >.<
did you ever love someone so much but you don't want them to be happy 
did you ever hate someone and when something bad happen to that person 
you feel bad & sorry
did you ever look to someone and say I want to be like 
that person but u don't want anyone to know 



...... did I ever wanted this ..........did I ever plan to get this far ..
I'm no longer know anything  seriously  I don't know . but to tell the truth I never 
care .. I just wanna make up for my mistakes

Eva :- Ken will u stop this u sart give'n me a headache
Ken ;- nah .... sorry just thinking 
Eva :- it's ok but I have test tomorrow I'm not a genius like u I have to study

once again I'm standing here alone in front of you 
I won't lie and say that nothing happen last year 
actually my life change  .. but not like the way u change it 



you don't scare me anymore to tell the truth I start felling comfortable 
coming here once in while talking to you 
 , it's help me to think & remember whats really matter 

so please

stop whispering and speak louder so I can hear you
stop hiding and step to light so I can see you 
black , white , red 
that 's all I can see ...